A bad day turned into a better day

Last night after having watched the movie "Something Borrowed," I started feeling sort of sad and depressed. There was a quote or line in the movie where Ginnifer Goodwin's character 'Rachel' told something to Colin Egglefield's character 'Dex' which sort of resonated with me and the things I've been feeling lately.

I know I sometimes sound like a broken record, but I feel like I haven't accomplished everything I've wanted to in my life. However, there are certain things I don't have that I can't do anything about because they're totally out of my control. I wish I knew how to handle these types of situations because I feel like I'm totally clueless sometimes. I also want to make some improvements in my life, including being more outgoing, but there are just some things I would prefer not tackling alone. Then again, I came into this world alone, so I'm going to have to teach myself not to be afraid of taking the next step in trying to find what it is I'm looking for.

After having returned from brunch with my family--to celebrate a belated Father's Day and my mother's birthday--I noticed my crush tweeted me, which was in response to a general statement I posted yesterday about a movie (NOT the same film I spoke about here in this blog) I had seen the day before, which he was in and that meant a lot to him, which also happens to be one of my favorite films. Anyway, I had no idea he had a supporting part in the film. After he responded again, my disposition turned from bad to better. :)

In retrospect, I just have to keep reminding myself to think positive and have faith that everything will get better...one day.

"Sometimes you just have to forget about the things that make you sad and remember the things or people who bring joy into your life." ~Me

Sad Day

My crush left today to return home, which is on the other side of the United States. Apparently, he had been staying here in the U.S. (i.e. Los Angeles) for close to a year now, likely doing different acting gigs and teaching acting...more notably with the acting company he did the performance with back in March.

After much deliberation for the last three days or so, I emailed my crush through Facebook as opposed to leaving a message on his website or sending him a direct message through Twitter, because as we all know, sometimes you have much more things to tell someone that surpasses 140 characters!

What I basically said in the message was that I could kick myself for not having introduced myself and said hello to him after his show in March. I mentioned that I tend to be a little shy, but that once I get to know you then it's all good. In fact, I told him to ask our mutual friend, who's known me for several years now. Then I told him not to ask our mutual friend after all because he might tell him otherwise. ;) I ended the message by asking him if he was planning on returning to the U.S. either at the end of the year or next year and I told him that the next time I see him that I wouldn't be so shy. Well, I think he messaged me back a few hours ago, but I don't have the guts to open the message up right now since I'm working on some other things.

Seriously, my problem when it comes to guys I'm attracted to is that I can't talk to them! :-( I mean, meeting Jonathan Knight with the New Kids was a whole different experience. I thought for sure I'd choke up and mince my words when I met him and the others. Ok, so I was shy when I met The Monkees last summer, but that's only because I've loved them since I was 3.5-years-old. I mean, my Davy crush was over with by the time I was 6-years-old! But saying hello to a guy who you've never even met before, but who you've only heard good things (i.e. friendly, nice, down-to-earth) about, well, I have a slight problem with that. UGH!!

Honestly, all I'm looking for is a friendship with this guy. I'm not expecting anything else. Unfortunately, anything else would be difficult because he lives in a different continent. But you know, there is this form of communication that is called the Internet. ;-)