Friday, November 30, 2012


My intuition is usually always right. Well, exactly one week ago today, it was definitely right on!

Last Friday evening, my second cousin "R," who's a year older than me and who was visiting her parents, invited me out to a tapas restaurant/bar, which recently opened up in our neighborhood. Initially, the invitation was for a birthday drink since my birthday was on the 21st. Without hesitation, I answered her text and asked her what time and where. After a few texts, I told her that I'd pick her up at her parents' house.

Five minutes or so later, we arrived at our destination. Since both of us were raised in this town, we started reminiscing about the two businesses that were at this location prior to the tapas restaurant. The new business owners really turned this place in to a nice setting. When we walked in, I was hoping they wouldn't make us sit outside, but they did. Thankfully though, there were long-standing heaters nearby to keep us warm.

My cousin and I were at the restaurant/bar for about two hours just chatting and discussing the fact that we're both single. My cousin and her younger sister "M," (by 2 years) moved two hours southeast many years ago to attend the university. After graduation, they each found a career they had gone to school for. Eventually, "M" got married and now has two small children. Oh, I forgot to mention that "R" is a twin. Her brother "J" is married with one child, and actually lives near me.

Back to last Friday night: we ordered three tapas and a drink each. I wish I could've finished my drink, but I was already getting tipsy and I was the one who had to drive us back. Anyway, I was impressed with two of the tapas we ordered. About an hour or so later, "R" told me that her twin brother and his wife would probably be joining us in a little while. They eventually did, along with two good friends of "J's." "J" is a jokester and always makes us laugh, so we were in good company. The tapas bar was about to close and "J" asked us if we'd be interested in walking to the "new" neighborhood bar just around the corner, which used to be a popular steakhouse. We said yes and made our way there. As we arrived, I was standing near the entrance next to a friend of "J's," trying to get situated. Then about five minutes or so later, I see this attractive-looking guy walking towards my direction, who just happens to be Mr. Cutie! I couldn't tell how many friends he was with him (maybe three), but I only recognized the grey-haired, slender, older woman with him. I honestly think that as he was leaving, he actually saw me.

For some reason or another, Mr. Cutie popped in to my mind just hours before going out. He lives in the same town as I do, but we NEVER run in to each other. The last time I saw him was about two months ago at a festival in town. I thought to myself, "If I run in to him this evening, would I finally have the courage to say something to him?" Obviously, since he wasn't alone, it would've seemed awkward to have said anything. I think he and the grey-haired woman are just friends. Ok, I'm hoping that's all they are.

So the next question is: do I still have feelings for Mr. Cutie? The answer to this question: I don't really know. I've never been forward enough to introduce myself in-person versus the time I FB messaged him three years ago. Seriously, the perfect opportunity would've been to have approached him at the festival, since he was semi-solo, but I didn't. :-(  But then part of me also wonders, "Why doesn't he approach me?"

I guess it's only a matter of time until I get tired of waiting around for someone to initiate a conversation with me. I need to start utilizing certain skills I keep hiding and that I'm working on, and figure out a way to approach others (i.e. mainly men) without feeling nervous or awkward. I guess it's time to push this shyness aside! ;-)

This Is 40

This is why I cannot wait until December 21!  :-)

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Throwback Tuesday

As I was driving home from school this afternoon, I was listening to the radio and heard this song, which I hadn't heard in a while. I still love it!  :-)

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving

I hope everyone has a great and Happy Thanksgiving!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Happy Birthday to Me!

Today is my birthday and I'm celebrating a very special one this year! Let's just say I'm old enough to drink, old enough to remember who shot J.R. on "Dallas" and Brandon and Brenda Walsh on "90210" (the original shows, not the new versions), yet I'm still too YOUNG to qualify for a senior discount or collect Social Security! ;-)

This past Sunday, my parents, my sister, my brother and one of my nieces (my oldest niece and her hubby, and my nephew couldn't make it since they live out-of-town and out-of-state) and I went out to dinner to celebrate my birthday. We had dinner at a nice restaurant, which is located about 20 minutes south of where I live. When we all finished our respective dinners, I was the only one who did not bring home any leftovers. At one point, the waiter shows us an array of desserts and we tell him that we won't be ordering any dessert tonight. Then about 5-10 minutes later, a few waiters and waitresses came to our table and brought me a cowboy hat to wear, and then sung "Happy Birthday" to me. They also brought me an ice cream sundae with one candle lit.

However, today on my actual birthday, my good friend "C" took me out to lunch. Then I had an errand to run and then celebrated a low-key dinner at home with my family, minus my niece, who had to work this evening.

I would just like to say that I'm very thankful for being able to celebrate another birthday. I'm also grateful for my health, the roof over my head, my friends and most of all my family. :-)

I hope this new milestone brings me many more opportunities and helps me get closer to accomplishing a few of my lifelong goals within the next year.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Frustrated with School

There's an old saying that goes like this: "If it isn't one thing it's another." This couldn't be more truthful. You see, I just recently applied to the university for which I'm hoping I'll be accepted in to for fall 2013. However, every time I set foot in to my class where my instructor advices all of his students on the application process, etc., I continue to grow very skeptical and nervous over the latest updates on what it now takes to get accepted in to higher education.

I submitted my online application to the university about two weeks ago and will likely not find out if I was accepted until around March 2013. To make matters worst, I just experienced a major (well, at least to me it is) setback.

There's another saying that goes, "If at first you don't succeed, try, try again." On November 15, I had a meeting with my math instructor. Just before class had ended about an hour earlier, he handed us back our 2nd exam, which we had all taken the week prior. I didn't do very well on this test. I met with my instructor immediately after class and he recommended that I drop the course and try again next semester. This was technically supposed to be my last semester and next semester was going to be reserved for taking one class for my major and one elective course. Well, that's all changed now because I will have to re-take math again in January. :-(

Honestly, I wish I had the brain for all college-levels of math. Instead, I ended up with the English gene. I've put in many countless hours doing homework, getting one-on-one tutoring every week and going to both math tutorial centers, four days a week, to get assistance. Unfortunately, all the hard work hasn't paid off yet. :-(

After having spoken to my instructor and after having cried for a little bit, I composed myself. I then called my guidance counselor's office to see if I could make an appointment to see her before I register for spring classes, which is in two weeks. Unfortunately, she had nothing available until the day before I register, so I decided I was going to go to drop-in counseling the following day. In the meantime, I headed over to the math tutorial and attempted to work on my math homework. However, during the entire time I was there, all I could think about was how I failed terribly. :-(

The next morning, I drove to school and met with a guidance counselor. I discussed with her what my instructor had recommended and I asked her if it was better to drop the course altogether or should I remain in the class and accept the grade I was going to receive. The counselor agreed with my instructor in that I should drop this course, which I ended up dropping on Friday.

This is NOT what I had intended to happen. I really wanted to pass this course THIS semester! I know that I'm not a good test taker and I have a really hard time remembering certain concepts. While I felt that the lectures in this class moved at a quicker pace, my brain was still behind and still trying to figure out what I was taught during the previous lecture! UGH!!

Next semester, I will start new, hoping this time that I will pass my math course. I'm so ready to move on with my life and be done with this school! 

Friday, November 9, 2012

Flashback Friday

Here's a favorite song of mine by my favorite band The Monkees. The song is from their 'Headquarters' album, which was their third album, but the first one they took full control over after having fired music producer Don Kirschner.

I can't wait to hear this song be performed live on Sunday! :)

Sunday, November 4, 2012


"You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection." ~Buddha

Friday, November 2, 2012

Funny Guys Quote

This sums it up best.  :-)

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